My Place in the Here and Now

These last few months I have done a lot of thinking and praying. I have entered a very new and different time in my life and I have many times had to convince my self that it was actually happening. I just recently moved into an apartment with two friends of mine. I have a job that I am work 40+ hours and I am living over 300 miles from my family. I have bills and responsibilities and people are calling me "ma'am" now. No one outside of my intimate circle sees me as a child or barely an adult, but as a member of society that needs to do her part. Inside I feel just like that 10 year old kid out riding bikes and getting into trouble knowing that all of my needs would be taken care of someone else. I have had to do a lot of reexamining of life as I have entered this time. I have thought several times why is it that I am doing this. I believe that this is totally God. I have a place in Springfield that only could be provided to me by God. Its not based on my family or on the influence of people I know. Some of it is partially because of the hard work I have put into it, but a lot of it has been because of the leading of God and the presence he has in my life. I am getting ready to apply for my ministerial license and I have the support of my family and friends as well as a church that I work in. A church that I was only attending for 3 months when the pastor asked me if I would consider coming on staff as the intern. That he felt that God wanted to use me in this church and that he wanted to help me learn what I needed to learn in order to pursue the calling God has on my life. So as I sit here and spout of random thoughts and recollections, I want to take this moment to thank God for his awesome presence in my life and for the wonderful provisions he has given me. I thank him for a wonderful set of parents and four incredible syblings. I thank him for great friends and church families. And I thank him for the gifts he has given me and the opportunities he has made available. Thank you so much for all you have given me!